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Its been a day. I STILL COULDNT get over my score. Winee got a freaking 9. And my 15? Its far far away, not comparable, at all. What happened to me? I expected the A s and they didnt came. But its the other way round for Winee. Grrrr............ i performed like shit for my O's, totally not like my usual self. This sucks. But I know I have to survive with it. So I promise I'll learn and get better emotionally, then start life afresh in Tpj most prob. Besides, there's always so many friends out there for me I know. That's the best part :D

12 Jan wasnt a good day for me like i thought it would be. My O lvls results were completely unexpectated and it made my heart sank when Miss Latifah said "Your L1R5 is 15..........." while my eyes were still panicking all over the results slip finding proof to that 15 score, and at the same praying it wasnt true. But no, its true. Its fixed and never to be changed again. 15. I kneel down and started calling my mum. I broke down even though I have no intention of doing that. It was just tears that couldnt control themselves. I grumbled and complained and felt injustice, I put in so much hard work, arranging consultations almost everyday, thinking I would at least get 11 or 12 or somewhere there. 15 was totally not the score I deserve. There were mostly B s at the subs I had confidence in and only one pathetic A1 for Sci and A2 for Poa. I stared down with crestfallen feelings and stoned there. Next, my Dad called. I cried as badly as when I was talking to mum. That urge to cry even more returned. I couldnt help it, but keep rubbing my eyes and covering my face, knowing how awful I'll look. I saw Pea, her eyes were red too. I went to sit beside her and we're like two sad ppl tgther at tt moment. Karen was brave la, didnt even shed a tear lol. Huishia was breaking down very badly behind me. Her eyes were so many redder and swollen than mine. Her mum was there and Junqian cried for fun lol thats what she said. Lame........... then Hwee saw my photocopied results slip and started laughing AND crying at the same time. "You never pay sch fees ah!" Hahahaha, then we became the duo that cried and laughed at the same time. Its super anti climax and we sure look........not suitable for that dull and saddening scene. Joan was good, on the honour roll with 8 points. My god, if I had 8, I would jump and catch a star down for everyone. My class mostly got ard the same score as me, with Gerald 11 and didnt manage to ask abt Shijie and Winee. Sad sad sad moment. Chua came and started counting the score for us and Miss Anisa was there too to advice me. Credits to her for my A1 in Sci :D There was ppl who's happy and ppl who cried regardless of tears of joy or sorrow. It was a scary experience. Now, I think I'll go Tpj cos there arent much for me to choose right? This freaking yr sucks. Ppl who were supposed to do well didnt and vice versa. Whats happening to Cambridge?

To Kpc, Yiting, Munyee, Monica, Zinc, Jiayu, 4 BN 2008, all those I know out there,

whatever what choice you guys made in the end, it was a memorable experience today, I'll never forget today. No matter Jc poly or whatever, I've known you all for long and hope you guys can all make wise decisions and stay happy most imptly!

To ......,

I've yet to hear from you! Cheer up ok? I've so much to say to you!